Maybe I'm Not So Bad Afterall
Well...I just finished my first crack at the VPP fall league. And what a crack it was!! I had a slow start, but picked it up as the evening progressed. I shouldn't tell you this, but I just stuck to the fundamentals and after a hard fought evening, with many worthy opponents (probably much more so than I) I ended up coming in second to scottyp.
One of the more interesting parts of this poker journey is trying to figure out how I compare to others in my level of poker skill. If I were wise, I wouldn't even worry about it, but I do. When I was a volleyball player, I'd be the one looking at all the other teams and thinking.. "Oh they're so tall..." instead of "Oh they're tall and probably slow..I'll just stick the ball in the corners." Even tonight, when I sat down at the table my first goal was not about making the money, I just wanted to make the points. Then, I wanted to make the final table. And once I was at the final table, it was so fast, I didn't even get a chance to really think about my goals.
My husband always says to me, "Why don't you just always strive for first"
"I don't want to get disappointed," says I.
"You're good enough to beat those guys you know..."
"Well, they're pretty good.." says I.
"So are you.."
"Ya but.."
And it continues.
I think that for me one of the things that is holding me back in my poker learning is belief in myself. I need to consider myself worthy of playing at any table I sit down at. Building my confindence may actually be more important for me than building my bankroll. Because once I know that I can win, I will.
So, I would like to thank all those players who finished below me this evening for contributing to my growth as a poker player.
And, with all of you as my witnesses here this evening, I want you to know some of the goals that I have set out for myself (and please, please, please, hold me to them, Okay?)
-I will earn my way to a tournament in a warm place via satelites
-I will pay for half of my children's education with poker earnings (they attend a private school)
-By 2008, I will be a semi-pro poker player
Lofty goals I know...but...I came in second tonight. And that's a start.
Ahhhhh. Everything is right with the world today.
It's just so nice when you have a successful night of poker, isn't it?
Be well until next time.
Kaycee
P.S. Oh..I almost forgot. I don't want to be too demanding, or take up too much of your poker playing time, but if you read my blog, would you mind leaving a teeny, tiny comment, just so I know that people are looking at it. I would love to know your insights too. Thanks
One of the more interesting parts of this poker journey is trying to figure out how I compare to others in my level of poker skill. If I were wise, I wouldn't even worry about it, but I do. When I was a volleyball player, I'd be the one looking at all the other teams and thinking.. "Oh they're so tall..." instead of "Oh they're tall and probably slow..I'll just stick the ball in the corners." Even tonight, when I sat down at the table my first goal was not about making the money, I just wanted to make the points. Then, I wanted to make the final table. And once I was at the final table, it was so fast, I didn't even get a chance to really think about my goals.
My husband always says to me, "Why don't you just always strive for first"
"I don't want to get disappointed," says I.
"You're good enough to beat those guys you know..."
"Well, they're pretty good.." says I.
"So are you.."
"Ya but.."
And it continues.
I think that for me one of the things that is holding me back in my poker learning is belief in myself. I need to consider myself worthy of playing at any table I sit down at. Building my confindence may actually be more important for me than building my bankroll. Because once I know that I can win, I will.
So, I would like to thank all those players who finished below me this evening for contributing to my growth as a poker player.
And, with all of you as my witnesses here this evening, I want you to know some of the goals that I have set out for myself (and please, please, please, hold me to them, Okay?)
-I will earn my way to a tournament in a warm place via satelites
-I will pay for half of my children's education with poker earnings (they attend a private school)
-By 2008, I will be a semi-pro poker player
Lofty goals I know...but...I came in second tonight. And that's a start.
Ahhhhh. Everything is right with the world today.
It's just so nice when you have a successful night of poker, isn't it?
Be well until next time.
Kaycee
P.S. Oh..I almost forgot. I don't want to be too demanding, or take up too much of your poker playing time, but if you read my blog, would you mind leaving a teeny, tiny comment, just so I know that people are looking at it. I would love to know your insights too. Thanks
6 Comments:
Very nice finish in the league game! Good luck with the rest of the league!
Those are definitly some big goals, but that's great to have something to shoot for.
Remember one thing Kaycee, nothing intellegent comes after "ya but". I only say this because like you I do not have much confidence in myself when it comes to playing poker. However I won a $250.00 cash tournament in november 2005 on BetZip. The top prize was $100.00 not much to speak of but it was a good start. Now I play in as many freerolls as I can and I just finished 9th out of 1071 players in a satellite tournament and qualified for the final satellite for a chance to win a trip for two to aruba on Ultimate Bet.com on the 17th of september 2006. Wish me luck. In short lol all I am trying to say is YOU CAN DO IT!!!
Regards,
willholdem4u
P.S I am also building a website for an affiliate program so I can make money to play poker, and like you I want to be a pro player, good luck and I hope to see you in the card rooms.
i read...nice job, kaycee.
another 2nd place finish again tonight? I think we have a ringer here folks....
I read your blogs too...very interesting for the novice like myself
Kaycee,
It was very interesting to read your experience, I'm looking at ways to earn money online at my blog investjournal.blogspot.com.
Poker is mentioned but more of a longer term aim for me so I will be interested to see how you progress. Would be it okay if I put a link to your blog on mine? Please let me know by sending an email to murfee88@ntlworld.com
All the best
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