Must Write Blog

It's been awhile. Two weeks to be exact. It's not that I didn't want to tell you what was up with me, it's just that I've had such a fantastic run the last couple of weeks that I couldn't pull myself away from the tables long enough to let you know how things were going. In the last couple of days, things have slowed down, so here I am.

Each night the following mantra has been flowing through my head:

"Must write blog before I play poker"
"Must write blog..."
"Must write blog.."

As tends to happen when things are going well, I begin to question the limits that I'm playing and whether it is time to move up. The inner dialogue goes something like this:

"I'm ready to do this. I could be making SO much more money"
"I could lose so much more money"
"I should do it"
"I'm scared"

Then, I'll go ahead, buy into higher limit tables, get heart palpitations every time I slide any money into the pot, play a game different than I usually do, lose more money than I'm comfortable with and end up at the lower tables anyway. Only to go through the same, painful cycle a few weeks later.

The thing is, I'm sure that if I gave it a little time, I'd be fine at the higher limits. Lately it's been a bit better. I've moved from the 25 cent no limit tables to the 50 cent tables. It's still small potatoes I know, but I have two kids to get through Montessouri school, a mortgage and many years before I can retire.

I have had a great month. I have quadrupled my bankroll. I have excelled in some multi table tournaments and my sit n go average isn't bad either. When I look back at where I started back in February and the amount of knowledge I have amassed since then, I have to be proud of my poker progress. This is no weekend lesiure for me. This is my future. And I'm good at it.

And it is so much fun.

Hope to see you at the tables!

Be well until next time

K.